trigger warnings: i take accountability for the fact that i have not done tws in the past. i will from now on be conscious of putting "tw: [content that may be triggering]" before posts that i think need that. i will also put those into the tags for use w/ things like savior. please let me know a preferred system for you/tw's that i do not do that you need and/or want.
It’s taken months
To find the stones, pebbles, branches
I’ve thrown into the water
Hoping that each one would remain without sinking below the
surface.
I dug
with raw finger tips into
bloody dirt.
Tenderly avoiding severing roots and segmenting bodies of earthworms
working through
decomposition.
The smoke still hangs in the air
mixing
with sweet scents of honeysuckle and rain.
Many of the support beams and crossbars,
Nuts and bolts are still visible.
Structureless frame remaining.
The embers are not yet ashes.
They smolder still, threatening to ignite any leaf or debris that grazes their innards.
Prone to
Temperamental flare ups.
I feel confident that
I can make
a solid path
across the water with the earth I’ve thrown.
Piled upon itself .
Piled upon my self.
This is not a replacement
This is not a bridge.
I no longer wish to circumvent the water
Getting my shoes wet,
the potential of slipping, tumbling in, getting cut bruised —swept away by the current .
I was too far above
the flowing waters before to see the tadpoles
budding legs above their tails.
The water
looked all one
mirroring color,
and I saw more of the trees in its surface
than any of what was
within and below.
